so, how long has it been since i last blogged?

exactly nine months. enough time to have a child...
and i think i have had a child of sorts.
cheesy as it may sound, i'm giving birth to great new things in my life, and hopefully will hopefully be used in the future to impact the lives of others.
it's not a new chapter, but everyday is a new day. and i'm working to push myself everyday to give more of myself than i think i can.

i'm trying to figure out how to sum up the past months in a few sentences, but i can't.
i can tell you that i learned almost every sense of the word patience at camp. and i've finally made sense of a lot of things that happened at camp this summer - 9 months is a long time to unpack so much growth.
i've had ups and downs. sickness, health, sadness, joy, rejection, and acceptance. some brought on myself, some brought on by the continual weight of the world.

one thing i have realized is how much i want to set myself up for God to use me in the lives of others. i WANT to pour myself out. i think he has been pruning my metaphorical branches to help me find a place to pour into. so i've decided to take the initiative to start blogging again. i want to pour these experiences out somewhere, and this is really the only place i can think of to do it right now. i am not distracted by organizations, a boy, or anything like that. this is what i have to work with, and this is what i need to use. the written word is powerful, and hopefully my thoughts can help you in some way, or even just make you think.

i've definitely realized that blogging helps me to organize my thoughts. it's great therapy.

anyway, i'm sure more about my experiences will come out later. but please, if you have a second, read my entries. i need feedback to hold me accountable.

enough about me though. let the posts on ideas, happenings, etc begin, again.