week 6 is behind me.

i cannot believe how much has happened just over the course of a week.
this week, i had 6th grade.
they were intense. i loved them, but it's definitely one of those awkward stages where there are some kids that seem mature, and some that are really immature. that was difficult and tiring, as i didn't feel like i could get in the mode to really best serve one age group, you know?

it's not about me though, and i know i need to keep telling myself that and believing in His greater plan.

edit:
so now i'm standing at s.i.'s (shrimply irresistible's) house... this week is day camp.
i got my girls this morning... day camp is only 5 days, which means that 9-3 monday through friday we are with our kids, but after that we are either off (two nights) or doing work crew duties. my girls this week have definitely been an encouragement so far, as they are excited to be here and are just awesome. we won the spirit stick today, no big deal...
anyway,
i wanted to finish discussing the things God has been teaching me since i've been here. i was definitely low on patience, and though God has been providing, i don't know how i'm going to stretch as much patience as i've used in the last week throughout the whole summer.
praying for a great cabin next time i get one... or one that does not make me feel completely worthless as a counselor, because i definitely felt that way. i confess that i read my evals at the end of the week... i didn't know that i wasn't supposed to read them, and then i wished i hadn't. i only read a few, but they were all bad (one girl said i shouldn't even be a counselor). it wasn't that i was concerned that they didn't like me, but i just felt like a counselor can keep them from learning so much if they're not good... so that just made me feel like i failed them.

but it's a new week, and i'm praising the Lord for it. it's only the end of monday, but i already feel like the Lord is using me to serve others, or maybe it's just that i feel that i can be myself and not have to bottle things up.

however, i am frustrated that i think of myself so often. how much better of a place would the world be, filled with the love of Christ so much more, if we all stopped thinking of ourselves all the time? i am so guilty of it.

2 corinthians 12:9 - "but he said to me, 'my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."... i'm praying that i will truly be living this out in my life this time that i am at pinecove.

also, i was reading through john 1 today, and i thought it was so interesting how Jesus was born into the world to save us, and show us how to be a light, but yet wasn't received by the world. i think it's very applicable to life today, in that our culture (especially in the states) is so far focused on things opposite of the Bible and of Christianity that i believe people think of Jesus as someone completely different than who He is. He is radical, not self seeking, and we are called to be like him, but this culture we live in twists Him into someone we do not know or recognize when we read the Bible. apologies, this is very much a stream of consciousness, but it's nice to just be able to reflect on the things i've been learning and write them down to share.

in other news, my mom asked if i've met my husband here yet.
it really frustrated me, as that will not likely happen, and that is not the reason i am here. i do not want to be distracted by some silly boy or being frustrated because of the drama typically associated with them.

well enough of that. on to dg templates.
shalom.