it's exhausting, mentally and physically. i can't wait to move back to college station next week! i'm really excited, and everything is really starting to come together.

as for other stuff, i haven't been doing much except reading harry. sad, i know. i need to read a different book before i start the seventh, because i'm pretty behind on my summer reading (even though i have been reading a lot).

as for the premiere. i loved the movie, thought it was exactly what it needed to be with the exception of the weasley's house getting destroyed. i think that for the time they spent on that scene (as well as the diner scene at the beginning) they could have put something more book-related, such as the bill/fleur romance or the big fight at the end of the book. it would have been much more effective to have more of the plot replacing those scenes.

i also don't think i want to come back next summer. work has been ever so taxing and frustrating, and i know that if God wanted things to be going better they would be. i guess this is just a test, and i feel like being positive is one i'm failing miserably at. i know i'm in control of my actions, but i seem to let my life get in the way of living, truly. romans 7:21-25 puts it perfectly: "so i find this law at work: when i want to do good, evil is right there with me. for in my inner being i delight in God's law, but i see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. what a wretched man i am! who will rescue me from this body of death? thanks be to God - through Jesus Christ our Lord! so then, i myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin."
i feel like i'm much more vulnerable here. i don't have my normal support group and am not surrounded by the amazing christians i have in college station. i think i took that a lot for granted this year.
still, praise God that i am being tested, because how do i know my faith is real if i can't keep it during difficult times like the one's i'm experiencing at present?

anyway. that's really all i have at the moment.