so i think i am really moody.

i had a really frustrating day sunday. but i am thinking it might get better, and my summer will be what i choose to make of it.

finished harry potter 2! it was so good and i'm stoked about reading the rest and catching up on what many of my friends really seem to enjoy.

i also got a chance to start sinking my teeth into searching for God knows what this weekend. don really grabbed my attention when he said there was a point where he told God he didn't believe in Him anymore, the santa clause-y version of God, anyway. he talks about really discovering what God actually is and promises, and i really like that because i had an insanely similar experience at one of the lowest points in my life (largely due to the fact that even though we had done the "right things," my family was still not getting out of the hole we were in, much to our dismay) and have been wondering for a long time if that meant i was being blasphemous or not, and no one has really been able to give me an answer. i have believed for a long time that i expected God to give me what i asked just because i was involved in church, and now know that's not how it works, but when i didn't get what i asked for i didn't understand what the heck was going on because i didn't really KNOW God. i think that's a main frustration with my youth group - i was involved but it was such a self-serving involvement that i was never broken down to understand what God was really about. and then when i was turned away financially, it all fell apart and my idea of "God" was no longer there. anyway, it's really a great book, and miller is a great writer.

got back from guard comp practice tonight feeling more refreshed and confident than i thought i would be. i'm really glad i went to texas open last year (red cross) because i don't think i'll freak out as much now.

i am also in disbelief that murano resigned. they better pick a good president this time who actually listens to the students (who are paying the tuition to give them funding to do what they ask, mind you). at the same time, i don't want a president who only gets the job because of political favoritism, either. we'll see.

i am thinking about going a bit redder with my hair. i'm excited. i get paid this week; it will be awesome!

oh. and i have made a summer roadtrip playlist that i am excited about!
1. wheel -john mayer
2. rockin' the suburbs -ben folds
3. a walk through hell -say anything
4. kamera -wilco
5. you belong with me -taylor swift (yes, i do like taylor swift.. she's great)
6. take back the city -snow patrol
7. wonderwall (cover) -ryan adams
8. starlight -muse (wouldn't be complete without a muse song)
9. the fear -lily allen
10. friday i'm in love (cover) -fiction family
11. waking up in vegas -katy perry
12. bubble toes -jack johnson
13. bodysnatchers -radiohead
14. hear you me -jimmy eat world
15. screaming infidelities -dashboard confessional
16. different names for the same thing -death cab for cutie
17. you found me -the fray
18. glass of water -coldplay
19. heaven -angels and airwaves

i love making playlists.

anyway, now i'm going to watch a movie. =)